Right Where I Belong
As 2019 came to a close, I wrote about how I wanted to finish out the year strong. In past years, I've found that the way I finished out one year helped to shape the year that followed and set the groundwork. For me, that made it all the more imperative to close out 2019 on a good note. Naturally, just as I was thinking that I was closing out the year the way I wanted to, I found myself staring down past struggles that were resurfacing. Past struggles in the form of inadequacy, rejection, loneliness, and singleness. Following a nice trip home for Christmas to see family, a different struggle emerged: a pesky cold. Ending 2019 and beginning 2020 bedridden with a fever wasn't exactly what I had in mind. Even after the worst of the cold was gone, I still found myself feeling withdrawn, both from having a cold and from those lingering past struggles. Around this time, I also found myself feeling weary, not having the same energy to do the very things I enjoyed doing i